I'm on a roller coaster.
A week ago, although I had my period and everything hurt a bit more than usual, I was feeling much better. I felt strong, I was optimistic. I read blogs of other women and I built the illusion that my pain was much smaller than theirs. I even started thinking about treatment. I felt so good, I wanted to write a whole post about it.
But then, the period stopped, and things changed.
First of all, I had to start the treatment again. Putting the cream on the sensitive area (the "vestibule") was so painful... I just kept crying and crying.
So much about my pain being smaller than other women's and me taking this "condition" so well.
It's what they call DENIAL.
Since then, I have too often felt depressed. After a rather difficult week-end, I got back on the way up yesterday. But I still feel vulnerable, stressed about the most stupid and insignificant things.
