As for V, well, I have learned to live with it. Fortunately, the pain is now much more bearable than it was at the beginning. All the tricks I've been using seem to work. Of course, sometimes, I get a pain flare and I'm in for a few uncomfortable weeks but I've learnt to just wait patiently until it goes back to normal. And even in those times... I recently realised I developped a much higher tolerance for pain. Well, for this kind of pain anyway (but usually I'm still a wuss about unknown kinds of pain!)
I am still not getting any treatment, though. There are only 3 gynecologists who specialise in vulvodynia in this country, and they're all in the south-west, whereas I'm in Berlin, and as a student I just couldn't afford the trips. Moreover, I'm still traumatised by the effect the last medication had on me (the migraines, the tiredness...), and I'm just too afraid of the side effects. So, unless the pain gets worse again, I guess I'll stay like this, like a tightrope walker, trying to keep the balance in order not to fall on one or the other side.
A few of my (girl) friends know about this, but most of them don't realise what it means. My family also doesn't really realise what it means, and I've given up trying to make them understand, because I think they don't want to. I mean, what parents want to hear their child is constantly in pain?
